Become the things you loved most about the people who are now gone
Bird Sanctuary hike
This morning I booked leave and enjoy these views, I am excited to see the ice melt and then start capturing life and all it’s interesting processes.
This morning I booked leave and enjoy these views, I am excited to see the ice melt and then start capturing life and all it’s interesting processes.
Last night to this morning
The chaos of life used to frustrate me, now I accept there is not much I can control and surf the waves instead, its easier to see the sharks this way I found
The chaos of life used to frustrate me, now I accept there is not much I can control and surf the waves instead, its easier to see the sharks this way I found
Editing from the past
I have a tremendous amount of pictures I have taken and never shared, I am going to share the ones I like here. Here is an example of something I took but never posted (some days i can take 2-400 pics on a hike and I at max share 4 of those.
I have a tremendous amount of pictures I have taken and never shared, I am going to share the ones I like here. Here is an example of something I took but never posted (some days i can take 2-400 pics on a hike and I at max share 4 of those.
Take care of yourselves
This world can be fuelled by hate and inadequacy. Find your trysts and create your peaceful space.
I want to nail this shot again, i took it 5 years back but this year I want more dramatic skies of course :)
This world can be fuelled by hate and inadequacy. Find your trysts and create your peaceful space.
I want to nail this shot again, i took it 5 years back but this year I want more dramatic skies of course :)
Portrait my Son took of me 4-5 years ago.
I have very few pictures of me tbh and I am very cool with that. I have never posted this picture anywhere because of silly things like it could open things like a discussion with my ex wife why I drive at 120 which was then the original reason and then 50 other reasons solidified it leaving me with something i wanted to share to keeping it hidden.
I am not that person anymore who is one that controls himself by a thousand invisible rules that conflict with each other leaving me frustrated and confused. I breathe the same air I used to but now I understand I am strong enough to handle what comes my way. If the past 5 years has not killed me, then I need to rise above that fear and shift into a space without fear and choose different choices then in the past. I chose to search out what controlled me and reverse engineered it from there. Our lives are evidence to what we want if we can slow down enough to create a plan that is worth subscribing to. Break and recreate that plan for ever and to never settle and always know processing emotions is a life long thing and not something that happens on the side when you get time. I want to choose to love with intention and those intentions be ceded in integrity to keep more balanced. Not the way of the world now so I need to also be wise and not a trusting sucker. I am that strong as well, I have over a decade of experience working inside federal prisons. Ive seen the full spectrum of life.
I have very few pictures of me tbh and I am very cool with that. I have never posted this picture anywhere because of silly things like it could open things like a discussion with my ex wife why I drive at 120 which was then the original reason and then 50 other reasons solidified it leaving me with something i wanted to share to keeping it hidden.
I am not that person anymore who is one that controls himself by a thousand invisible rules that conflict with each other leaving me frustrated and confused. I breathe the same air I used to but now I understand I am strong enough to handle what comes my way. If the past 5 years has not killed me, then I need to rise above that fear and shift into a space without fear and choose different choices then in the past. I chose to search out what controlled me and reverse engineered it from there. Our lives are evidence to what we want if we can slow down enough to create a plan that is worth subscribing to. Break and recreate that plan for ever and to never settle and always know processing emotions is a life long thing and not something that happens on the side when you get time. I want to choose to love with intention and those intentions be ceded in integrity to keep more balanced. Not the way of the world now so I need to also be wise and not a trusting sucker. I am that strong as well, I have over a decade of experience working inside federal prisons. Ive seen the full spectrum of life.
Fake facts I believe…
Sometimes I enjoy making up facts that should be real.
For example 50 percent of all grown Men only pick their noses while driving.
Prove me wrong and why is this not a fact? Lol, have a wonderful day World, it is Monday so dont be too serious, let’s make it what we want it to be, the start to a great week.
Do you have any fake facts that need to be addressed? :)
Sometimes I enjoy making up facts that should be real.
For example 50 percent of all grown Men only pick their noses while driving.
Prove me wrong and why is this not a fact? Lol, have a wonderful day World, it is Monday so dont be too serious, let’s make it what we want it to be, the start to a great week.
Do you have any fake facts that need to be addressed? :)
A dance of duality
A dance of duality… right in between an ending and beginning
A dance of duality… right in between an ending and beginning
Inevitable future
An aspect I love about life is the inevitable future and the same possibility between hope and horror can/could happen. The only difference between the two is our interpretation of it and where we are mentally within ourselves. Show up daily for yourself and the path is laid out before you imo. That is the difference to me I find is the difference between doing and being. You plan to do but if you just be it is your baseline. What will you be?
An aspect I love about life is the inevitable future and the same possibility between hope and horror can/could happen. The only difference between the two is our interpretation of it and where we are mentally within ourselves. Show up daily for yourself and the path is laid out before you imo. That is the difference to me I find is the difference between doing and being. You plan to do but if you just be it is your baseline. What will you be?
Justin
Last week I lost a co-worker who was close to my age unexpectedly (in recent times he beat Cancer), if you ever met him He was larger then life and always so positive and I who as someone who lives largely inside myself well. Justin was that type of person that had a nuance for knowing how to extract only the goodness out of you. We worked in different departments and had different circles of people. He invited me to a thing they did in the engineering department in which I gained interest in, on a file cabinet we would draw with a sharpie a bulls eye or as the game progressed we had evolved the game to keep it fresh and fun we had bonus targets with higher points but bigger risks. We had a line with tape on the floor and you could not cross it or your throw is disqualified and once a week the Engineers and I (I work IT) and Justin would send calendar invites to me to try it and I showed up and I loved it (because I did good right away, lol) and kept going back week after week and we then made it a thing and it attracted people from 5 to about 20 people per week, enough that it was taken so long to complete we thought management would say something soon, so the game right, ha sorry, lost in great memories, The game was simple, we would try to find the best magnet (the ones for EAP where the best and we stole them all around the office for our game, must of looked funny on the outside of that and we throw the magnets from like 10 feet away at a bullseye on a metal file cabinet and you get 3 throws and your combined score of all 3 would be your score, the top score would get to keep the W.M.D.C. (World’s Magic Dart Champion) trophy for the week, also if you did have the trophy you were able to print and picture of you that you wanted and could use these special awesome winners magnets, sometimes people would use your magnets with your picture thinking the magnets were better, and yes I have had this trophy many times and held the records for most consecutive weeks (3 in a row). We continued this until Covid hit and it never came back, maybe this is exactly what does need to come back at work in honor of a Man who only chose to see the good side to things, I have become better by only being around you, I wish you peace and love Justin.
Last week I lost a co-worker who was close to my age unexpectedly (in recent times he beat Cancer), if you ever met him He was larger then life and always so positive and I who as someone who lives largely inside myself well. Justin was that type of person that had a nuance for knowing how to extract only the goodness out of you. We worked in different departments and had different circles of people. He invited me to a thing they did in the engineering department in which I gained interest in, on a file cabinet we would draw with a sharpie a bulls eye or as the game progressed we had evolved the game to keep it fresh and fun we had bonus targets with higher points but bigger risks. We had a line with tape on the floor and you could not cross it or your throw is disqualified and once a week the Engineers and I (I work IT) and Justin would send calendar invites to me to try it and I showed up and I loved it (because I did good right away, lol) and kept going back week after week and we then made it a thing and it attracted people from 5 to about 20 people per week, enough that it was taken so long to complete we thought management would say something soon, so the game right, ha sorry, lost in great memories, The game was simple, we would try to find the best magnet (the ones for EAP where the best and we stole them all around the office for our game, must of looked funny on the outside of that and we throw the magnets from like 10 feet away at a bullseye on a metal file cabinet and you get 3 throws and your combined score of all 3 would be your score, the top score would get to keep the W.M.D.C. (World’s Magic Dart Champion) trophy for the week, also if you did have the trophy you were able to print and picture of you that you wanted and could use these special awesome winners magnets, sometimes people would use your magnets with your picture thinking the magnets were better, and yes I have had this trophy many times and held the records for most consecutive weeks (3 in a row). We continued this until Covid hit and it never came back, maybe this is exactly what does need to come back at work in honor of a Man who only chose to see the good side to things, I have become better by only being around you, I wish you peace and love Justin.
Fireflies makes me believe in the magic of nature
This is one of my top 10 photos (which actually is a still taken from a video) on a night that was both magic and tears. I will try to top this one this year.
This is one of my top 10 photos (which actually is a still shot taken from a video) on a night that was both magic and tears. I will try to top this one this year.
Tonight was a dream
I took about 50 photos today and only looked at these 2 picture panoramic (2 picture’s blended together to make a long landscape). This shot is off my backyard into the back field by my property overlooking the world’s highest tides in the world, It always amazes me that I can see through my 150-600 mm lens in a Canon 90D which equates simply to 900 mm telephoto lens and that I can see mist dancing off the ocean in the sunset in my viewfinder, I am just amazed that every single time I witness it, I should try to find some of those shots and see if I did it justice and post them here. Well here is tonight’s efforts This is on my 150mm-600 Lens but on a full sensor Canon R5. Cheers world!
I took about 50 photos today and only looked at these 2 picture panoramic (2 picture’s blended together to make a long landscape). This shot is off my backyard into the back field by my property overlooking the world’s highest tides in the world, It always amazes me that I can see through my 150-600 mm lens in a Canon 90D which equates simply to 900 mm telephoto lens and that I can see mist dancing off the ocean in the sunset in my viewfinder, I am just amazed that every single time I witness it, I should try to find some of those shots and see if I did it justice and post them here. Well here is tonight’s efforts This is on my 150mm-600 Lens but on a full sensor Canon R5. Cheers world!
My lil ole big boy
I am sitting here this evening, getting a little bit nervous about having a chat with my son. He really is so much like me in every way. I feel that it is one of two things… either he is imitating me, or he is simply a younger version of me. Here we go…
He is growing and developing, but he is nervous to be outward (so everything is inward). What I mean by this is that he lives inside his head and creates his own heavens and hells (speculating here). I felt I had done the same thing myself growing up. I created better worlds in my head than the reality of the crappy ways people treat other people on this earth here, so I would imagine I was there, in my imagined daydreaming world.
So anyways, I felt it was not that I did not “get it”. If I was shown different things, then possibly I would have been more interactive. I realized this only over the past few years. So, I want to present the situation to my son, to go online and buy him a man’s grooming kit to hopefully spark an interest in taking better care of himself. I have a picture of him when he was 4 shaving with foam and a plastic razor. As well as videos of me shaving his peach fuzz at 5-6 with a real razor and calling him a man and he beamed ear to ear. My heart is full of an endless beat like a perpetual laser beam of love to him. He is my everything.
Since writing this we have both got the same Men’s grooming kit and with like 40-50 pieces I will need to learn some myself and we will go over this together.
He was the one the pressed the checkout button to know he was interested, and He is excited about sharing this together
I am sitting here this evening, getting a little bit nervous about having a chat with my son. He really is so much like me in every way. I feel that it is one of two things… either he is imitating me, or he is simply a younger version of me. Here we go…
He is growing and developing, but he is nervous to be outward (so everything is inward). What I mean by this is that he lives inside his head and creates his own heavens and hells (speculating here). I felt I had done the same thing myself growing up. I created better worlds in my head than the reality of the crappy ways people treat other people on this earth here, so I would imagine I was there, in my imagined daydreaming world.
So anyways, I felt it was not that I did not “get it”. If I was shown different things, then possibly I would have been more interactive. I realized this only over the past few years. So, I want to present the situation to my son, to go online and buy him a man’s grooming kit to hopefully spark an interest in taking better care of himself. I have a picture of him when he was 4 shaving with foam and a plastic razor. As well as videos of me shaving his peach fuzz at 5-6 with a real razor and calling him a man and he beamed ear to ear. My heart is full of an endless beat like a perpetual laser beam of love to him. He is my everything.
Since writing this we have both got the same Men’s grooming kit and with like 40-50 pieces I will need to learn some myself and we will go over this together.
He was the one the pressed the checkout button to know he was interested, and He is excited about sharing this together
Little bit of what I am about photography wise
I do not watermark; not one of my photos or ever will, I share nature with anyone who want’s to partake and watermarking just doesn’t work for me, to me it is all about nature and less about me and that is my sweet spot.
Whats good?
Fenne Lily - What’s good
https://youtu.be/UWdlyAgqhOQ?si=pMUVpVdJjg-RVrqO
“You take the words right out of me
But it feels alright to let this be
And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like
More than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to“
Fenne Lily - What’s good
https://youtu.be/UWdlyAgqhOQ?si=pMUVpVdJjg-RVrqO
“You take the words right out of me
But it feels alright to let this be
And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like
More than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to“
Contemplation
i needed to contemplate some things yesterday and this was where that happened. Life to me is like a play with many acts and scenes and I am trying in ways to make the transitions more seamless for myself.
i needed to contemplate some things yesterday and this was where that happened. Life to me is like a play with many acts and scenes and I am trying in ways to make the transitions more seamless for myself.
Must share music and why
These 3 songs have always given me an infinite amounts of equal but different happiness….
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcW5PNk6bsQ Dermot Kennedy - An Evening I Will Not Forget/Furthest Thing
“I still love you, though
I still love you, though
I still love you always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Crack and break and part ways
I still love you, though
I still love you, though
I still love you always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Let's not crack and break and part ways
And I wonder if I could let her down”
https://youtu.be/bv5RuxhBEqk?si=ORkS78dVfPs6SQlN KALEO - Backbone (LIVE at Breiðarmerkurjökull)
“Hold the line, yeah
Do you fight for pride or glory?
Do you hold your scars close to your heart?
Fall behind, yeah
Who will live to tell your story?
You were taught to leave no man behind”
https://youtu.be/IUK_2YLow6M?si=s3E0dADMJIsyQ7qN Juke Ross - Colour Me (Acoustic)
“You, colour me
You colour my soul
Paint me red in places once filled with gold
You, colour me
You colour my soul
Make me dream of things I never did once before”
These 3 songs have always given me an infinite amounts of equal but different happiness….
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcW5PNk6bsQ Dermot Kennedy - An Evening I Will Not Forget/Furthest Thing
“I still love you, though
I still love you, though
I still love you always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Crack and break and part ways
I still love you, though
I still love you, though
I still love you always
So hold me when I'm home
Keep the evenings long
Let's not crack and break and part ways
And I wonder if I could let her down”
https://youtu.be/bv5RuxhBEqk?si=ORkS78dVfPs6SQlN KALEO - Backbone (LIVE at Breiðarmerkurjökull)
“Hold the line, yeah
Do you fight for pride or glory?
Do you hold your scars close to your heart?
Fall behind, yeah
Who will live to tell your story?
You were taught to leave no man behind”
https://youtu.be/IUK_2YLow6M?si=s3E0dADMJIsyQ7qN Juke Ross - Colour Me (Acoustic)
“You, colour me
You colour my soul
Paint me red in places once filled with gold
You, colour me
You colour my soul
Make me dream of things I never did once before”