Become the things you loved most about the people who are now gone
Lucky Enough - Zach Bryan
https://youtu.be/dPOVwmnxJZ8?si=pyjJnmK_RcsSD7KU
If I'm lucky enough, I'll see fogs lift with suns
As we roll to play a show in Carolina, Oklahoma, or Chicago
I'll grow to know the road to home in places far away
Wrinkled, bald, and beat to shit, to never waste a day
Enough people will hate me that I know I did it right
But to never meet a human being that I say that I don't like
Let me learn the hard way and cut it close sometimes
That youth is the attic chest where every lesson lies
I'll have some kids and teach them that we are all the same
Sufferin', smilin', silhouettes of every passin' day
The love I have will always be something my friends yearn
My memories were never cheap and never easy earned
I hope to choke on jack and coke in a bar during a northern winter
On a night the band was tight and right as rooftop lights flicker
If I'm lucky enough, I'll understand losing someone close
I'll clench my teeth on New Year's Eve and try to talk to ghosts
I'll stumble through a market on a Sunday day in June
Smell the salt and asphalt on a Sunday afternoon
I reckon I'd be lucky if I made it half as far
To only die on hills that are closest to my heart
If I'm lucky enough, notebooks will be strewn across my room
Or play catch on green grass with spring time flower bloom
If I'm lucky enough, I'll tell the truth every chance I get
'Cause smiles faked to appease another is worth ten regrets
If I'm lucky enough, I will get through hard things
And they will make me gentle to the ways of the world
If I'm lucky enough, I'll have the courage to leave and go
Wherever my beatin' heart tells me to go
If I'm lucky enough, I'll get high and invite a guitar player over
And he'll play sweet notes until a New York City rooftop sun rises
I'll meet some kids in school that still know how to play instruments
If I'm lucky enough, I'll make it exactly to where I'm taking this breath now
Lay my head upon the Earth and laugh at passing clouds
If I'm lucky enough, I'll remember the shaky things we've seen
Grab your beer through tears and fears, the great American bar scene
A book
Today I bought a book I read back in high school, in fact my buddy Jay and I both stole our copies from school, it was called the shipping news, a good book, i remember I lent this book to a friend back when i was in my 20’s. She sadly passed away, she was a great person and now so many years later I am sitting here wondering what happened to that copy of the book, whom may of got it, inherited it, bought in a used book store? What scribbles it may have, dog earred pages. Tears.
How our lives become interconnected baffles my mind and I wish more people could see these connections. We are different yet the same. I may not be able to understand your journey. But I do want to hear it.
Northern lights
Last night around 12 am I took this. 10 second handheld. Hold my breath and dont move lol.
Stick season
https://youtu.be/JKrDdsgXuso?si=vjn2ToeKRDedSNjI
Noah Kahan - Stick season
My life long best friend said this song is so me, maybe 5-60 percent truthful he was always quite the mellow dramatic loser lol.
Today was hard
It was a long and hard day today, hoping tomorrow is better, everything is temporary bs mantra insert here lol. This was the beauty i still saw throughout the day. Without sadness, how could I truly appreciate happiness? The last shot was a 3 second exposure out of my son’s room window, I took this when I was saying good night to my Son, he thought it was earlier from the brightness and thought he could get up. No silly boy go to sleep :)
Honeybee’s
I was outside for a little bit today and when I came back into work I felt a movement on my neck and picked up whatever it was that was moving and threw it on the ground. I noticed it was a honeybee and picked it back up to find a flower and a photo shoot.
Windows to the future
I am at a coffee shop having a coffee and listening to music in my earbuds and I seeing a man on the other side around 80-90 years old. He is observant and observing, I watched him look at me and nothing happened but I can see him trying to understand me and my story. Internal classification system to make himself feel safe in an unsafe world possibly?
Am I looking into the future with this encounter, is that what I would want, I loom around and see a changing world and think that is great. We need to change things up and know the truth settles the same way every time. Stop being insecure and live life without a self imposed walker.
I do not want to be an observer in my later days, i want to be a shaker. What needs to be shaken?
The clouds were amazing
Nothing gives me passion like clouds and a sunrise/sets. Such a massive photo this was.
Paranoid much?
Paranoia is nothing more than repressed rage at other people, redirected against ourselves.
Paranoia is nothing more than repressed rage at other people, redirected against ourselves. -School Of Life
These books are such treasures to me
Today in photos
Son and I went into the woods and bush hiked for fun, pretending fallen trees were downed planes and we were on enemy territory.
The sunset was incredible.
Today in pictures
Sunset was so great to be a part of, the easter lily is under a fluorescent lights
Sunset was so great to be a part of, the easter lily is under a fluorescent lights
Last night continued…
Doing my dishes and looking out back to realize tonights sunset should be great. Today feels like the first spring day to me and life is good.
